When I was dating my ex, I felt like I had no talent as a songwriter. I forgot about my own dreams, and spent all of my time supporting his. Little by little, I was losing pieces of myself. I barely played my guitar, felt little inspiration to write songs, and felt dissatisfied with anything that I would write.
Tonight, I’ve written my first song in ages.
It feels so good to reclaim the pieces of myself that I had lost in our relationship. It feels good to be confident in my abilities, to be able to express myself through written word and melodies.
What frustrates me is that it took me so long to do so.
I feel angry that I had ever let myself feel worthless or talentless.
I’m upset that I deluded myself into thinking that my voice or opinions had no value.
I’m mad that he didn’t notice this change in me, and didn’t encourage me as much as I supported him.
Overall, I feel disappointed in myself.
But, now I’m starting to pick up all of these pieces again. I’m rediscovering myself and opening myself up to new experiences. I’m meeting new people, learning new things, and conquering new obstacles everyday.
You can do it too.
Readers, how have you rediscovered yourself after times of hardship?