Why do I need his attention?
I want to talk to him. I want him to notice me. I want him to miss me when I’m not around.
These aren’t bad things. But so much of my mood depends on it.
How do I remove myself from it, but also not go too far?
It’s so hard finding a middle ground. I’m either head over heels or running away in fear.
I want him to notice me. I want him to want me. I want him to crave my company.
Moments like these I need to pause and breathe.
Breathe in, breathe out. Tell yourself, “He is just a boy.”
Sure, you feel like you love him and you see a future with him. But repeat to yourself, “He is just a boy.”
It’s so unbelievably difficult, my heart just wants to rule my body. But my brain repeats, “He is just a boy.”
I can’t let what one person thinks of me dictate my worth. I shouldn’t let one person have so much control over my emotions.
I am level headed and strong and beautiful and smart.
And I don’t need a boy’s attention to validate me.